number 2! i thought for sure i was just going to sign up for this thing, write once, then discard it as someithing i'll get to later. like many things i do in life. there always seems to be something better to do. no matter what i'm doing at the moment. i'm sure most people are like that. my brother put it great once in regards to cellphones. "whenever you're with someone and the cell goes off, you ignore the person you're with to talk to the person on the phone. but if the person you were talking to on the phone was standing right beside you, they would be ignored to talk to someone else if the phone rings." ya get it? hope so.
one thing that's been on the backburner is running. i've been getting a bit of a belly since i've turned 30 and quit smoking. i used to be the guy who was skinny no matter what i ate. now i'm a little self conscious of it. that's where the running comes in. i keep telling myself "when it starts getting warmer out" but i know i'm only saying that to put it off where as if there was a little more dedication then the weather wouldn't mean shit. i'd be out there trotting along the pavement, sweating up a storm and i'd be very happy doing it. instead it seems like a burden that i'll have to bear soon. unless i get comfortable with my pudge and fudge.
i guess that's it for now. i don't intend that anyone will read these. it's really just a place for me to vent and talk about shit that others (i assume) don't want to listen to. but shit, if you've read this far, good on ya. thanks.....oh and manderson, go back to bed! hahaha.